Tuesday, April 19, 2011

Hello, Goodbye

Cold Frame - Almost
Raise your hand if you thought this was the longest, darkest, coldest, snowiest, most depressing winter you could remember in a long time.  Now think about how much less fun it would have been if you went bald, lost your appetite, and basically felt like shit on a stick for the duration.

I'd like to say "Hello Spring, Goodbye Winter', but it just keeps hanging on.  Enough, already.  I'd also like to say that post chemo, I slept off the the usual post period, then suddenly awoke like a hibernating bear, hungry and ready to go.  Unfortunately, it didn't quite go that way.  My appetite has been replaced with a crapetite (you wouldn't believe what I've subsisted on), and the accumulated fatigue can knock me out at any time, like a cranky toddler. 

The good news is that I passed my heart echo test with flying colors.  The bad news is that I can barely do anything without having to take a break to catch my breath. It's both physically and mentally exhausting at this point.

Jake eating corn on the cob last summer
I did have to say goodbye to my oldest and favorite cat, Jake.  At nearly sixteen, he was showing plenty of signs of aging.  He had lost weight, had thyroid problems, and failing kidneys.  He'd always been a great lap cat, but when I was diagnosed with breast cancer, he seemed to sense it, and he rarely left my lap, and he started sleeping practically on my pillow.

He held on through chemo, but was not doing so well the night before my last one, and I took him to the vet expecting the worst.  She said he needed fluids and an enema.  I left him overnight and picked him up after chemo.  While I gutted out the last round, he got worse as the days passed, and I knew it was time. It's just not the same around here without him.

Hellebore aka Lenten Rose
I'm slowly spring cleaning from the top to bottom of the house.  Every time I hit a tag sale in the neighborhood and see a house full of junk housed in rooms stuck in a time warp, like the brightly colored, shag carpeted place a few blocks away, it spurs me into action. I predict a really big yard sale next month. 

Also discovering all of the home repairs that are in my future - leaking roof, crumbling front stoop, crack in the basement foundation, and finally why it's so cold in the kitchen - apparently the duct in the crawl space is disconnected, as discovered by the guy who replaced my gas meter. 

I'm looking forward to my new 12' by 3' cold frame located right outside my office.  As you can see, there was a little problem with measurement in the last frame.  Oops. I can probably start enough plants in there for the entire neighborhood.

Green and Pink Hellebore
I said hello to these beautiful Hellebores.  They are one of the first spring bloomers.  I've long admired them, but they are usually hard to find and very expensive, and I feel fortunate to have found some at a reasonable price. 

My daily trek for radiation treatments technically begins today.  I've been measured and tatooed, and survived the dry run. 

I also forgot until yesterday that I was due for a new driver's license.  Fortunately, you are permitted to wear a scarf for the photo.  I was kind of surprised, that all things considered, it turned out pretty good.

1 comment:

  1. For what it's worth, post-chemo I launched immediately back into everything I was doing before and tried to make up for lost time. As a result, I hit a wall, was totally exhausted and for the next six months pretty much picked up every little virus and cold-bug that went around. Don't be like me. Ease yourself back into things.
    So sorry to hear about Jake. My condolences. It's so hard to lose our furry family.
    Teresa (& Seamus)


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